Hold Out, My Sweet

"Hold out, my sweet..."

     Oh how I did. Every night I waited for her. Elphaba, my Elphie. Every night I hoped for her return. And every morning when I was the sun rise my heart broke. Not a day went by that I didn't regret letting her go. I'd lost the ability to sleep. I'd lost the ability to eat. Everything reminded me of her. I wanted to feel her soft emerald skin, to look into her deep brown eyes, to kiss her lips and fall asleep in her arms again, just once more. How could she really be gone?

     But then, wasn't this what I'd wanted all along? Everybody knew that we'd hated eachother from the moment we met. I'd almost convinced myself of it, too, but then I would come home to our private suite at Shiz University and she'd be waiting for me... There was no denying the attraction between us, and those nights with her were absolute bliss. She was the most amazing girl I'd ever met. Not to mention the only person who wasn't scared to tell me that I was far from perfect. Of course, she was too. We were imperfect, but perfect together. Once I could finally admit that to myself after trying to deny it for so long, I felt... happy. When I believed that I wasn't perfect, I didn't feel the need to hide anymore. There was no pretending with Elphaba. I could take off my mask and for once in my life be the girl who I wanted to be. She brought that out in me. But now that she was gone I had no escape. People wanted me to be this perfect wonderful goddess, when in reality I was only a scared, insecure young girl, lost without my dear, my sweet angel... Sure I had a lot of friends and many fans, but none of them mattered anymore.

     I often recalled that night in my memory. The night when my life was shattered and my heart was broken. I wish, only wish, that I had gone with her. My Elphaba, my love. Just her and I, defying gravity. And nobody could bring us down...

     Every night I find myself looking out to the western sky, hoping to see her sillouette in the moonlight. But until then I'd wait. For you, for us, for what might've been. I dream that someday it still could be. I hope so, and I'll wait forever, my Elphie...